You know, I thought about whether I wanted to write something. Before the new year, those last few hours, I never had that much to say. I must have spent the past few days wishing, hoping, and praying for a good 2023. I spent some time writing resolutions, goals, and aspirations. I made a Pinterest board that acts somewhat like a vision board. Compared to the previous years of resolutions, I went as far as adding extra notes. I explained how I could achieve those goals, and I gave myself time. I told myself, to read for no less than 30 minutes, even setting aside time for my mobile games and various forms of convincing myself to work out.
It was a much more extensive list than I have probably ever written before and will only grow. I wrote down the skills I would like to gain or get better at and new hobbies I have been meaning to try. With each stroke of my pen, I added as much intention to each goal as I could. I will do this. Rather than writing down “Try to write X,” it was more like, “Write for X amount of time.” I wrote with certainty that I would improve myself.
Still, I can only plea, a plea for goodness, for a good start to the year, a plea for simplicity and peace, to enjoy my classes this semester, to eat good food and make friends (for real this time), to practice my craft and gain new skills. To be comfortable with my loneliness, my failures, and all the things I keep in my heart.
I want so many things for 2023 but more than anything I want to live well. I like to go with the flow but I think I'll make some more effort, more than usual. Truthfully I downloaded this image from Pinterest without really knowing where it was from, eventually, I did find it (September Affirmation 'Don’t Be Afraid' by Keaton St. James) another thing I hope to do, is to always know the source of media I consume haha.
I think it applies to me well. In my head, as the minutes go by and 2023 is already beginning, I'm shouting,
I do believe that I will.
I shouldn't stretch anything more than it needs to be, so I will leave it here, hoping, wishing, and praying to live well. A plea, a prayer for both you and me.
Happy New Years! May everything be good, and may 2023 be gentle to you.