I think I’ve tried several times, setting intentions for the month or year in big and smaller chunks, writing what I want to do. I should also mention that I usually get around to only one of those things out of many.
I think it might be that I’m trying to do more than I know I can do. I know that I won’t magically be able to meditate every day or draw every day, and with that, I start to feel like I shouldn’t try if I can’t do it. If I can’t wake myself up at a decent 10:00 am at least, do a 10-minute exercise at least and have something for breakfast at least, then I’ll sleep a little longer, forgo the workout and, well, I’ll figure out breakfast (lunch, actually) when I get there. It’s not really about the exercise or breakfast or waking up as much as it’s about having a routine. It’s about not letting my day go by and having the only thing I’ve done by the time it reaches 8:00 pm is split my attention between YouTube, Twitter, and a mobile game like Genshin Impact. I want to do more for myself, you know? I want to watch my videos, play my games, check my Twitter buy I also want to add to my bullet journal, sketch something in my sketchbook (which happens to be incredibly empty for someone who’s self-labeled as an "artist"), learn 5 minutes of the language I said I’d learn (for the past few years now, I can say hello in about 6 different languages though). Of course, it doesn’t have to be so productive every day, not so much that I don’t have room to rest, but I want to indulge in my hobbies enough that a resting day of playing mobile games, sleeping, and watching YouTube doesn’t feel so repetitive.
Even if I say that I have yet to do it, I think of what I said before, like the saying biting off more than you can chew, well yeah, my mouth is more than full. So I’m going to take a small bite and maybe setting three intentions for the month might seem kind of underachieving but I think it would help.
This doesn’t mean I can’t strive to do more, it just feels like having a small number of intentions for each month as I go would do me a lot better than listing all my personal life goals as intentions and expecting myself to check them off by the end of the month.
This was a long way to say that I’ll be setting a small number of intentions this June and try to focus on those, I think I’ll give myself a little room to move too. The intentions don’t have to be so strict, do they?
With that, here are my June Intentions.
I intend to mediate for 5 minutes (Anytime in the day preferably morning-early afternoon.)
I intend to drink more water
I intend to express my creativity (let’s draw more :)
Yours Truly, Milah.